Practice try (love letter) corny..

             umm..I don't know what to say...I'm still nervous even though you'll never read this (might)...I'm nervous even though this is a practice try..I'm always shaking when it comes to you. What do I do? I can't even stand 1 meter near you..i might fall down because my hands and legs gets numb..If I have a bad day, looking at your smile or a single picture of you cheers me up.

            I've been thinking alot on an question my primary friends frequently asks me... "Why did you became so quiet? " I've been thinking about the reason too...I think of it when i have free time after an exam, (to prevent me from sleeping) ,Why did I turn from a talkative person into a shy and quiet person all of the sudden? 

            I've always liked how you are always quiet but when you laugh, you are a different person. When I first met you back in 2011. My first impressions was "He is weird" "He is handsome but why don't he talk much?" I didn't have the slightest feeling for you that time...But when I first see you smile and talk with your friend.. "He is a quiet person, I don't like him" turned into "I like him" in a few seconds..

           I think its because of you I've turn out this way..if its you, I'll be glad to accept the fact that I've been changed to the better..Thats why I like you so much..

           People ask me when I tell them I like him, "why?? He doesn't talk much.." .. But you know what..? I like him because of that..but besides that..he is quite handsome..

           I have an Idol name Leo from VIXX...I like him as an idol because he reminds me of him...and now whenever I see his face..I instantly think of you !

          So, I wanted to tell you that I've had a crush on you for 3 years and counting..I don't know why..I just like you so much !

A day of disappointment

I asked him for a present. He said he had no time to buy it for me and even offered me money...At that time..My heart broke into pieces..Is this how he normally treats girls?? I even have second thought about him..But when I saw his smile at school...All my hatred just flew away...I regret having second thoughts..So I WILL BUY HIM A TEDDY BEAR FOR HIS BIRTHDAY !!!

My thoughts....

He is not exactly handsomer than my idols and plus he is not that thin. But I wonder why I like him so much?
I barely know him. We only talked a few times during form 1... and we haven't talked for 2 years! I seriously don't understand why I like him?
Before I knew that he kindda like me too(maybe,possibly, please ) I was worrying rather to give him a present for his birthday or not. My friend Juli told me that boys gets annoyed If another girl gave them a present (we assume he likes someone else). But after I stalked him on facebook (accidently on purpose )I found something that made me assume he likes me too.  I think I'm brave enough to even write my name on that present.
Well, I'm still wondering on what to buy and write on the letter. Should I leave my phone number and leave my identity unknown or should I just head up and tell him I like him in that letter. But what if I assume wrong and he doesn't like me after all? Not only I'll scar me, but we may never talk to him each other again. OMG! What should I do!?

D-46 !