too much.. .

I've to seriously stop stalking him..
I know his IC number, birth place, birthday, parents'car plate, his house address and now I even download pictures of him. I creep myself out...

OMG!!!!

Practice try (love letter) corny..

             umm..I don't know what to say...I'm still nervous even though you'll never read this (might)...I'm nervous even though this is a practice try..I'm always shaking when it comes to you. What do I do? I can't even stand 1 meter near you..i might fall down because my hands and legs gets numb..If I have a bad day, looking at your smile or a single picture of you cheers me up.

            I've been thinking alot on an question my primary friends frequently asks me... "Why did you became so quiet? " I've been thinking about the reason too...I think of it when i have free time after an exam, (to prevent me from sleeping) ,Why did I turn from a talkative person into a shy and quiet person all of the sudden? 

            I've always liked how you are always quiet but when you laugh, you are a different person. When I first met you back in 2011. My first impressions was "He is weird" "He is handsome but why don't he talk much?" I didn't have the slightest feeling for you that time...But when I first see you smile and talk with your friend.. "He is a quiet person, I don't like him" turned into "I like him" in a few seconds..

           I think its because of you I've turn out this way..if its you, I'll be glad to accept the fact that I've been changed to the better..Thats why I like you so much..

           People ask me when I tell them I like him, "why?? He doesn't talk much.." .. But you know what..? I like him because of that..but besides that..he is quite handsome..

           I have an Idol name Leo from VIXX...I like him as an idol because he reminds me of him...and now whenever I see his face..I instantly think of you !

          So, I wanted to tell you that I've had a crush on you for 3 years and counting..I don't know why..I just like you so much !

A day of disappointment

I asked him for a present. He said he had no time to buy it for me and even offered me money...At that time..My heart broke into pieces..Is this how he normally treats girls?? I even have second thought about him..But when I saw his smile at school...All my hatred just flew away...I regret having second thoughts..So I WILL BUY HIM A TEDDY BEAR FOR HIS BIRTHDAY !!!

My thoughts....

He is not exactly handsomer than my idols and plus he is not that thin. But I wonder why I like him so much?
I barely know him. We only talked a few times during form 1... and we haven't talked for 2 years! I seriously don't understand why I like him?
Before I knew that he kindda like me too(maybe,possibly, please ) I was worrying rather to give him a present for his birthday or not. My friend Juli told me that boys gets annoyed If another girl gave them a present (we assume he likes someone else). But after I stalked him on facebook (accidently on purpose )I found something that made me assume he likes me too.  I think I'm brave enough to even write my name on that present.
Well, I'm still wondering on what to buy and write on the letter. Should I leave my phone number and leave my identity unknown or should I just head up and tell him I like him in that letter. But what if I assume wrong and he doesn't like me after all? Not only I'll scar me, but we may never talk to him each other again. OMG! What should I do!?

D-46 !

THIS BLOG....

Introduction 

This blog is dedicated to my crush who will be known as yecagay. 

It will contain the feelings I go through everytime we meet until the day we start to date. 

Basically this is a story about my first love! 

Myself 

I'm 16 this year (2014). I started having a crush on yecagay since 2011. I'm a month older but does age really matters in relationships? There is no rule that you must marry a older guy to be happy! I used to dream of having older husband too, but after I met yecagay ,I think it's better! 

Story 

The crush started when my friends asked me who I liked, I told them I do not have any crush because I really didn't. They started reciting names infront of me, and I happened to smiled at his name . So they suspect that I like him. I really never notice him more than a friend before this. But things got awkward after that and we didn't talk for awhile. But when we started talking again, he smiled at me. He was really handsome when he smiled. And that's how my crush started.